News and Updates
Here we are in 2016, and already I have an overwhelming list of ideas to push for D.Kerper Arts.
In the time spent promoting myself in 2015, I have been able to meet numerous talented people and see a brighter future in myself. Collaborating shows with Fresno Underground Arts, Culture Cloths and Le Mode, as well as a solo show at Tower Tshirt Factory, have helped me understand the work it takes to get to where I would like to be. So far it has paid off well. I have counted 10 shows under my belt in the last 6 months. Along with that, have studied some experience in blacksmith, welding, and creating molds for any future sculptures. I have taken on extra challenges by signing up for art club and becoming treasure in my studies at Fresno City College.This has made me more driven in work for myself in time managing, financials, and experience as a starting entrepreneur and artist.
What to expect.
I hope to build further in this career path while still studying art and going after my degree. Though I have built an astounding history for D.Kerper Arts, I need to look at spreading out my work in time. My Etsy shop will reopen by the end of January. With that, I will take on requests for commissions that are up to par, and would love to collaborate more with other artists. I will be opening up things like past giclee art, stickers, buttons, even originals on Etsy.com.
By summer, I hope to open up D.Kerper Arts with products such as tees and snapbacks.
I personally want to thank you all for the endless amount of support in D.Kerper Arts as I am trying to further learn and grow through this process of building my own career and brand. You all are amazing as an individual and whole. I can't thank you enough..
See me rise in 2016. I would love to take you all on this ride!
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Well, well. It has been awhile. A lot has happened in the last month, departing me from doing any updates of any kind. Just know I haven't forgotten about any of you. I can't believe the way things have been.
I have learned a lot about myself in the given month. From gray clouds over me, to the light finally shining on me. I started to see who people really are behind the tinted glass and understood my place in a lot of others lives. When it comes down to it, who will you rely on when times are rough?
In the given month, I have come together with many artists and entrepreneurs to discover the answers to the questions I've been longing to find. I am so thankful for these people who have walked into my life and became more than just resources. Trying to discover what I want when it comes to building my own brand makes life more intense and less boring. Some people would give up on the opportunity due to lack of time, patience or money, but not I. I'm moving forward and trying to learn the easy and hard way of all of this. Though I had to sacrifice a few moments, I learn through the process of it all that life is what you make it out to be, and no one else can tell you otherwise. Though turn of events do happen and false hope may come at a rise, never give up on yourself. Because one drop of toxic negativity may grow as a wild fire.
During this month, I have learned a lot about scheduling and financing. Counting down my balance and understanding that time is everything. What you put into yourself is worth every second of whether you come at a rise or stay in the shallow ends. Luckily I'm out of the shallow water and successfully swimming in the ocean. There will come a point where I know life will stand steady and I hope I can reach a small island for a break, but until then I just keep swimming.
To fill in on my first showing held at Tioga-Sequoia Beer Garden, hosted by Fresno Underground Art, I was super fortunate for the results of how well I sold and the people I met along the way. I decided to dress as Mario for the Nintendo theme and got a lot of love out of that. I was super grateful for the fellow artists (including Henry "Loco" Contreras, Zoombie Laurel of Zoombie Nation, Bryan "Bald" Lopez, Brian Vasquez, etc.) that have become my art brothers and mentors. I was super shy to showcase anything that day, and seriously showed me I should never let myself sink low when I have something worth fighting for. These guys are amazing artists themselves. I couldn't be anymore grateful than where I'm starting right now.
In early September, I was featured again with Fresno Underground Arts at Tioga-Sequioa Brewing Company. It was such an amazing show as it not only introduced me to a larger group of fellow artists (Gabriel "Wombat" Galicia, Anthony Gonzalez [of Wyze Fools], Elizabeth Castro, etc.), but it was also 6 days before my 27th birthday. I felt like there's no where else I'd rather be than doing what I love with great people and celebrating with the family and friends that came. I did bring in a cake to show my other skills but also just to celebrate. It was a great turn out and I left feeling warm hearten. I would like to thank my long-time friend Sami for helping me set up and handling the booth. I couldn't be more thankful or relieved to have her help that day.
As for now, I have a few shows lined up in October through December. More information to come on future shows. As of now, for anyone in the Central California region, mark your calendars:
I would also like to give a warm show-out to Fresno Underground Art and Zoombie Nation. Please go stop by their show over at Zoombie's Tattoo Studio, October 1st for their "Leftover show"!! I love those guys to death and couldn't as for a better community to be in.
Thank you all for the support you have given in the last few months. I feel like with you, I wouldn't be growing something that I've longing to strive for.
"Carpe Diem quam minimum credula postero"
Everyday I'd ask myself these questions:
Is it all worth it?
Why is this happening when all I do is try my hardest?!
Well kids, I stopped asking those questions and just did it. During this summer, I have discovered that giving 100% of yourself entirely to others and devoting every aspect of time, energy and your life to them really takes a toll on who you really are. When you sit and wait for things to happen, all you do is doubt yourself. You eat it up and eventually digest that of what you think of yourself. If you keep planting that seed of negative doubt, eventually it will grow and become something killing you deep inside. Say your are worthless, then why be known? Say you are a horrible person, then why have friends? Say you are ugly, stupid, and a disgrace... then why are you loved? When there is at least one person out there that will go to the ends of the earth to watch you strive, all that negativity is meaningless. Why can't that one person be yourself?
Once I saw two worlds taking over me, I started to realize how much doubt had eaten the best of my potential. From my strengths to my beliefs. Eventually I had to learn what was worth my energy, what was meant to happen and seize life in the course given. I started to understand that not everything comes out perfect as expected. Nothing ever will, so sorry to kill that joy for you.
Another thing I have learned is what's worth chasing. People run after some of the most unusual things. Sometimes it's over a person they think will change their life, and other times it's after a chance. When given that chance, don't blow it. Take things slow, let it run its course and if all is worth while, go after it. Make the move and go big. Patience is one thing I will always lack but I'm learning to be acquaintances with it. That and having trust in people. When all else fails, just believe in yourself and the rest will make sense.
In the last month, I have been super busy with cakes, family vacation and going after opportunities. Luckily I have been given a great opportunity to be a part of a local art show hosted by Fresno Underground Arts at Tioga Sequioa Beer Gardens.
Keep dreaming everyone, you never know what will fall in place when you don't give up.
I stepped into a lot of realms lately. The month of June has been more than I could expect and balancing school, my hobby-job as a cake decorator, personal life, and work... You're bound to go insane. All you can do is run, and keep running. There have been many times where I have kept walking, then running so far, I didn't realize how far I actually was from home until I had to go back. People start to lose themselves and feel lonely after a while when you can't figure out how to express what you feel or why you feel this way. You feel selfish that you have to think of yourself for once, but at the same time when you carry a heavy heart to nurture for others... you're too much and it becomes toxic for you as a person, and the relationship of others around you. Social media and technology can also play a role in your level of sanity.
For many years... I have carried a heavy heart. It's toxic for me to have and sometimes I think about ripping it out and throwing it to the ground, but I hold on to it. I keep it protected, hoping it never gets hurt so I can nurture those I care for the most. In the end, it is myself who hurts it. Because I care too deeply for others, I end up losing myself in the game of life and become lost and distraught. I feel like I don't do enough for others and give everything I have in my power until I have nothing left.
Recently I discovered troubled things that have caused this heavy heart to break so much. It has been the cause of FEAR. Fear of rejection, disappointment, pain (hurting others and being hurt), having my own joy, falling in love, and having my own power. It's overwhelming when you've been locked inside a bubble for so long and once you're finally free from it...[POP!] what you expected out of the world isn't what it was made to be. Almost like the movie Bubble Boy. I've learned now to be stronger about it. I've had broken hearts from attempts to fall in love or being in love, have disappointed so many people in the past and present, hurt many people and have been hurt by them, been rejected countless times, have had to have power over someone, and I've had to gain my own joy without having someone in my life. In the end, I realized that all this happens, and I'm still alive. I still have this heavy-heart notion that I want to be there for the people that are broken, I want to help those who are trapped in a shell, and I want to be my own superhero and not anyone elses. I want to show them how much I care about them and will be by there side, while they learn to love and save themselves. We all live in this idea that we need a superhero to help us feel safe, but in the end we are all going to bite the bullet at some point so live through your own bravery, not by someone else.
In news of art:
November 5, 2015 at Tower T-Shirt Factory in Fresno, CA I will have my first Art Hop showing! I'm excited to be featured in something that's outside of school and outside of my hometown!
Visit https://www.etsy.com/shop/DKerperArts TODAY to purchase some of my photography and prints of my illustrations! All prints will be hand-signed by the artist.
We all look to support one another in the darkest times, but I think in my own experience I take too much to heart to be someone’s hero and less of a friend or family member. So in this blog piece, I decided to be raw and hope that this will help anyone looking to understand that sometimes you do have to take a step back and realize everything will be ok, just sit and wait. Live life at the pace given, and don’t rush anything.
For the last few weeks, I have taken time to reflect on my life through situations with school, work, friendships, family relationship and my own art. I started to understand for the last 10+ years I have tried to be the hero in everyone’s life, less of the friend sitting in the sidelines watching them fight in the arena, and a lesser amount of being my own hero. Within time, there’s a moment in any given person’s life when you attempt to help as much as your power will allow until it becomes too much for one individual to handle. It can cause a conflict between you and the person (whether friend, family member, etc.) and in the end they end up with a gift of a ship load of fish but never knew how to fish for themselves. This can cause more of a conflict in a relationship. When things get to the point where you smother one with your presence, you have to realize one major thing: it’s not always about you and sometimes a person just needs time for themselves to reflect on their own situation.
When someone walks into your life, or has been in for a period of time, with conflicts and challenges, typically the person is looking for someone to express their emotion but isn’t asking for help. They hope they can rely on the person to just be there. This doesn’t mean give your recent pay check to the person to pay off all their bills and buy them a brand new car to take care of the beat up old one that is dead to begin with. This means be the support group, the shoulder to cry on and the resource they hope to expect out of a friend, a confidant, and otherwise until they can help themselves through this. Within time it will help the relationship between you and the person create a bond that isn’t labeled as high or low standard; it helps to show that the person can express to you as a person in trust and not as an imaginative figure.
I use to live in the world of Disney, trying to be the sidekick and hero in every person’s life. Within time I gave up expecting more out of a person. I started to see now that life isn’t a Disney movie or the fact that heroes don’t always win the fight. You can lose friends and family out of the battle and you can lose yourself. The main thing you always want to remember is you can’t lose yourself in any of this. You have to start taking control of your own life and be the hero for yourself and the support group for others.
With all this said, I can safely say I have had a productive few weeks. Cakes and art pieces are lined up for the month of June, I had a successful first Art Hop experience (but sadly couldn’t stay for all of it), and my finals are finally over. Hopefully I can keep up with the pace and graduate this year, if not this year then the following semester. I just have to keep swimming and hold my head up high.